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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

anti-depressant postcard

Once again a postcard on this week's PostSecret blog entry really spoke to me. I've said this hundreds of times since I was 16.



7 comments:

tinkerbell the bipolar faery said...

I've heard of this phenomenon before. My sister reports feeling numbed by her meds. But it satisfied her, the same way a local anaesthetic satisfies a patient undergoing surgery.

And this make me ask the question, 'what, exactly do we mean by 'happy?' I sort of think of happiness as a choice, not a destination. But, that's just me. To try striking a balance with the meds, that's quite an art. We want to relieve the pain without being incapable of feeling.

Dreamwriter said...

I could so relate to this. I have been on meds for five years - on Lithium consistently for two years now and since I've been OFF lithium recently..I feel so much better.

It is such a cycle with mental illness..medication is suppose to make you feel better (to a degree) and so is positive thinking.

However, meds seem to make us worse, bad side effects, and makes us numb.

Who really knows the answer to this..who knows what really works and doesn't.

I feel that since being diagnosed with bipolar..that is all I think about, read about, write about, take meds for, try to eat healthier because of it, and I live and breathe it!

I need a break and stop thinking about it for once..I think this is my problem..constant thinking and working to make myself better that I am making myself worse.

Wandering Coyote said...

I saw that one too and had a similar reaction.

Ana said...

I know the feeling too.
It should be banned.
Thank you for the image.
I would like to post it on my blog it if you don't mind.
Love,
Ana

Kahless said...

Maybe try some different meds?

I changed recently from citalopram to dosulepin.

Put loads of wieght on, but feeling much calmer. Not sure about my emotions dumbed down? Maybe thats what os giving me some writers block at the mo.

BPD in OKC said...

Ana, anything you find on my blog is free range. I don't mind anyone reposting any of my blog entries.

:D

tracy said...

Excellent. i sometimes think mine just keep me from killing myself...except when i take a whole bunch...not a suicide attempt, just stupid.

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