BPD in OKC: I'm stupid...

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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I'm stupid...

so stupid... did something stupid....

i hate being the way i am sometimes... really hate it...

can't get the words out ... can't form sentences...

what the fuck....

goddamnit

8 comments:

Desiree said...: This is but a speed bump on the road of life. People make mistakes; people slip up; people have bad times. It doesn't mean you can't get through it and get back on the horse. Tomorrow is another day. It'll be okay. Sending you lots of love & good vibes.; Thu Apr 23, 02:14:00 AM CDT
She Who Is said...: Calm down and breath hun. It can't be all that bad. And even if it is we'll love you anyway.; Thu Apr 23, 07:16:00 AM CDT
tracy said...: Jennifer,
Whatever it is...you are n o t stupid. You are a very caring, dear person who gives of herself to others sooo much. i hope whatever happened, you are okay. Please take care of you!
love,
tracy; Thu Apr 23, 07:42:00 AM CDT
GirlBlue said...: Hugs and what Desiree said; Thu Apr 23, 10:53:00 AM CDT
Marj aka Thriver said...: I know about this type of frustration somewhat. I saw your Tweets and just wanted to give you some safe hugs if that's okay.
(((((((((((((BPD in OKC)))))))))))); Thu Apr 23, 02:18:00 PM CDT
Dreamwriter said...: You are not stupid, we all do things no matter what it is..how good or how bad..

I hope you are doing well. Thinking about you.; Thu Apr 23, 04:39:00 PM CDT
Ant said...: Know exactly how you fell. Hugs to you.; Thu Apr 23, 04:42:00 PM CDT
*~Sarah Lynn~* said...: I hope you'll be okay whatever it is Jen. You're in my thoughts!; Thu Apr 23, 07:58:00 PM CDT