BPD in OKC: "Almost dead" poem

Mature audiences only

You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

"Almost dead" poem

Another poem I wrote with online magnetic poetry tonight...

"Almost dead"

I am almost dead,
Fully empty inside
Without real life.
No beauty is there,
Only abstract pain.
My joy is surreal.
Why did he waste my dreams?
He was that drug
That killed me.
How can I feel harmony
When I feel so angry,
Suffering silently in my screams?