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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I should work 7 days a week

I hate having days off from work. I'd work seven days a week if my company would pay me to do it. I've suggested it several times to my boss, but she says that I'd have to work two days without pay because they can't pay me to work seven days.

On the days I don't work (normally Mondays and Tuesdays), I have way too much time to think about things. I have no distraction from myself. I sit around and obsess about everything in my life. My thoughts race at a million miles a minute.

I normally try to set up as many mystery shopping assignments on my days off as I can, but this week I had only one on Tuesday, and none on Monday. The last week of the month is always slow on shops. So the last two days, I've been mentally torturing myself, and I can't stop doing it.

Thank God my work week starts tomorrow.


1 comments:

lissyvz said...

the kid/s keep me so busy my days off are so full I can't get every thing done!
can you volunteer somewhere?

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