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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart

This afternoon I had another one of those moments when I'm driving in my car and suddenly a song comes on the radio that cuts through all the crap in my life and speaks to my heart. Alicia Key's song "Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart" explains the main reason I have so much problem sleeping these days. Yes, I have a sleep disorder, but it used to be treated easily with medicine. Now even the strongest sleeping pills can't get me to sleep well because I feel so broken inside. It's so hard to sleep well when you're in so much pain.

I looked up the lyrics and video immediately when I got home, and even the quote at the beginning of the video gets to me...

"There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another, but powerless to use this blessing for love themselves."





"Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart" lyrics

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time, you were telling me lies

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever try sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me, need me
I thought you told me, you'd never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

1 comments:

SapphireDreams said...

Aww I love this song already. Thanks for the link. Sounds like a little of what Ive been going through. This is the 1st year in almost 6 yrs that Ive spent w/o MY LOVE. I hope your day gets a little better. Im here listening too.

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