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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Great date... but then death

I've had a strange day, and I can't mentally process anything right now. This afternoon I went on the date with that guy I asked out earlier in the week, and it turned out so great... better than I could have ever imagined. But as soon as it was over, I called my mom to tell her about the date, and she told me that my grandmother (my dad's mother) died yesterday... just a day after my great aunt on my mom's side of the family died. I don't know how to deal with all this stuff coming at me right now. Whenever I can, I'll post a blog entry talking about it all, but right now I'm just lost in my own head. Needless to say, the Project 365 photos are on hold until I can think straight also.

6 comments:

Psycho said...

Take care sweetie...life can really suck, but your friends are here.

-Rae Macklyn

J.C said...

I'm sorry to hear that! But you are strong and will find a way through this!
Take Care

Surviving said...

What a sad ending for a great day. I too suffer from depression, and sometimes it feels like the world has dumped WAY too much on me. I keep forging ahead, as tough as it is, and eventually the sun will shine again. I wish for you that your sun will shine strong, fast! Hang in there :o)

Surviving said...

what an awful way to end a great day. I too suffer from depression and sometimes it feels like I can't survive the pain, especially when more than one hit at a time. I just keep plugging along until one day the sun shines through. I hope your sun comes through bright and strong, and SOON. Hang in there.....

Melissa Mashburn said...

I am keeping you in my thoughts. This is a lot all at once. **hugs**

entsala said...

bless your heart sis..,i just wanted to see how you are doing.

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