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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

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Thursday, February 18, 2010

Loves, likes, and things I currently loathe

Things I love
  • My dogs: I honestly can't remember what life was like before I got Oreo. He and Pearlz have totally enriched my life. If I didn't have them, I wouldn't laugh near as much or feel happy very often. I owe them my life.
  • My mom and younger brother: We often call ourselves the "Three Musketeers." I rely on them for so much.
  • Lissy: She's a great friend, and I'm happy I found her through Twitter last year. She's having a hard time lately, so we haven't talked much recently, but I'm sure she'll get through it because she's a strong person.
  • My job: Yep, I said it. I actually love my job. There are some issues, but that's mostly with certain people I work with. Overall, I enjoy what I do and most days I actually look forward to work, and I owe a lot of that to a few of my coworkers who share my sarcastic humor.
  • Lean Cuisine pizzas: I hate diet food. I hate being on diets, but those little pizzas are so damn good that I can forget that they're diet foods.

Things I like
  • Maxim magazine: I have subscriptions (all of them free) to a ton of different magazines. Most of them are women's/parents' magazines, and I do enjoy reading them. But their food sections always include recipes that I will never make. Maxim is different. In March's issue, Maxim has a section where it reviews a bunch of different frozen dinners and tells you the best options for meal types (pizza, meatloaf, mac & cheese, etc.)
    Now that's a food section I can actually use.
  • "Big Love:" I've never had HBO except on the occasional free preview weekend, so I have never really had the chance to get into any of its shows. But a few weeks ago when this season of "Big Love" started, I began watching it online, and boy am I addicted to it now. I've heard about "Big Love" in the past, and I was judgmental of it because it was about polygamists and I never figured I'd like it. I've never been able to start watching a show several seasons into it and start to like it, but this show is different. I didn't have to watch the previous seasons to catch up, which I really like.
  • Project 365: I'm really glad I decided to embark on the Project 365 photo thing this year. I feel like it's forcing me to tap into my creative side, and that's definitely a good thing. There are some days when I just stare at my camera and can't figure out what to take a photo of, but I normally get over that by the end of the day and come up with a photo.
  • Cast TV: I don't own a DVR, so I can't record any television shows that I miss while I'm at work, but ever since I discovered Cast TV, I haven't missed a single episode of any show that I like.

Things I loathe
  • Bras: They're evil... pure evil. No matter where I shop for bras and no matter what style I get, bras hurt me. I know I'm buying the right size, but they still hurt. I always used to think it was because of the underwires, but I've bought some recently without underwires and they still hurt.
  • NBC and the Olympics: I don't hate the Olympics. I think it's a wonderful tradition, but does NBC really have to play it 24 hours a day? During the Olympics, none of my favorite NBC shows are on, and the other networks seem to just play reruns because they don't want to compete with the Olympics.
  • Oklahoma weather: It seems like the state can't decide if it's winter or spring. Some weeks it snows, other weeks it's sunny one day and raining the next day. I wish the
    weather would pick one season and stick to it (SPRING SPRING SPRING).
  • Purse shopping: I've been using my current purse every day for about two years, and there's nothing really wrong with it. But I'm bored with it and want a new one. However, I can't find one to buy. Maybe I'm just too picky. I've looked in about 20 stores in four different towns and can't find just the right one. I've decided that the type of purse I want is just not in style anymore. My main criteria for a purse is that it has a long shoulder strap, but all I find are straps that hug close to your body.
  • My ovaries: In the last two months (since December 18th) I've had a TOTAL of only seven days when I wasn't on a full period or spotting. It's horrible to be bleeding all the time. I have started to have dreams about cutting out my own ovaries with a kitchen knife (so not a pleasant type of dream). Also, I've started to have an additional problem caused by the massive amount of ibuprofen the doctor has me taking and by the constant bleeding. I'd tell you what the new problem is, but honestly you don't want to know. It's gross. Anyways, I despise my womanhood right now.
  • Mystery shopping: It would be an awesome job ... if I never had to speak to anyone. My social anxiety has been insane lately and talking to strangers is not my ideal way to make money anymore. I seem to be ok talking to people I know pretty well, but if I try to
    go out in public and talk to strangers, it's literally painful to my brain.
  • My cell phone: This goes along with the social anxiety thing too. Unless it's my mom, I really hate talking to people on the phone. A lot of the time it's a stranger calling me (whether it's a mystery shopping company, a creditor, or a wrong number), and I don't care to talk to them. I have started to leave it on silent most of the time so I am not even tempted to answer it. I wish people would just email me or text me.

1 comments:

entsala said...

well, thank God im not on your loathe list, lol!! good thing lol's not on there either. only darn problem, i was gonna call you on your cell. poop.

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