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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

My latest song obsession

For the last few weeks, I've been rocking out to Lady Antebellum's song "Need You Now" constantly, but I got sick of it. I've now moved onto a new song. When I heard it the first few times I didn't know who sang it. I instantly connected to the song because of the strong emotion in the singer's voice. Then I found out what song it is -- "Whataya Want From Me" by Adam Lambert. Had I known it was by him I probably would have had such an attitude against it that I would have hated the song. It's nothing really against Adam exactly, but against all "American Idol" winners since Kelly Clarkson.

Anyways, the words of the song really drew me in, partially just because I have yelled "What do you want from me" in so many arguments with past romantic partners.



"Whataya Want From Me" lyrics

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
(Nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(It perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

1 comments:

Better Than Ever said...

Love this song, I totally feel it. I relate a bit, but I'm trying to distance myself from people who hurt me (I'm codependent recovering from a person who was diagnosed bipolar but refuses all treatment). A lot still fits, other than the want for support from the people foremost in my mind.

And, PS, read a lot here, and I think you are doing great. I can say first hand, compared to people who don't try to fix things, you have come so far, and done so much, you should be proud, and I hope this comment finds you smiling!

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