Project 365 - photos 130 - 136 (plus some info about my crappy week)

This week is a crappy week. I had a horrible night at work Wednesday night, and the work stress/anxiety led me to really bad thoughts of self-harm and suicide. My boyfriend was able to calm me down over the phone after work. Then yesterday was also a crappy day. I found out that my younger brother had an accident on his job and injured his feet. He refused to go to a hospital, so we don't know exactly what he did to them, but they're supposedly really swollen and it hurts for him to walk much. He may end up having to take time off from work until they heal up. I hope he didn't fracture something. Also yesterday, I found out really bad news about my older brother and his wife. They've been trying to have a baby for a while. She's 40 and past her prime baby-making days, so we all knew that she'd have some problems getting pregnant. Finally I guess she got pregnant. They found out a few weeks ago, but they hadn't told us yet. Well before they even got to celebrate being pregnant, she had a miscarriage. They're taking it really hard, which they should. My mom is also taking it really hard because she lost a grandchild before she even knew she would have had a grandchild. She's the only one of her siblings that doesn't have grandchildren yet, and the possibilities of her having any are pretty bleak.

Anyways.... onto the photos....

This first one is a quote I really loved from "More" magazine this month. It was from an interview with Sharon Stone. The quote really rang true to my life.

I found these big LOVE blocks at a clothing store/home decor store during a mystery shopping assignment.

I bought this wooden cross the other day at the neighborhood thrift store. I actually took this photo at 3 a.m. in the dead of night in my backyard. It's crazy that the flash worked so well. I have this plan to buy all sorts of old wooden crosses and make artwork with them modeled after crosses I saw at a recent arts festival.

You'll recognize the heart/spring in this photo from the "L" block from the photo above. When I posted this photo on Facebook, my boyfriend made this comment: "with the spring connected to the heart it implies that love is resilient, and can bounce back even when it gets knocked around." I love how philosophical he can get sometimes. He puts all sorts of intelligent thought into what I do

Nothing really special to say about this next photo other than I loved the clouds. Partly cloudy days make me happy.

The building in this photo houses the mental health treatment center that I checked myself into for a while back in 2008. Every time I drive by there I remember how helpful the treatment was. The people I met there (doctors, counselors, and other patients) together saved my life. I credit them all and that place with helping me finally decide to split up with my abusive exhusband. This time I drove by there was this bird sitting so pretty on the power line so I had to snap a photo.

This last photo is from last night. After the crappy day I had (finding out about my sister-in-law's miscarriage and my brother's accident), my boyfriend wanted to cheer me up so he took me to Pops 66, which is a diner/gas station along Route 66 for a date. (click here if you want to learn more about Pops 66.) I had never been there before, and it was so awesome. They have hundreds of weird sodas from around the world, and three walls are totally covered with the bottles. This photo was taken upwards from our diner table. We bought 6 sodas to bring home (ok well I bought 5, and he just got one). I got two "gross" ones... one was a yellow colored soda called "Kitty piddle," and the other was pink and called "Dog drool." I also got a "Love Potion # 69" soda, which is supposed to be an "arousing soda." Then I got an apple soda and a black cherry one. He got a cherry cola from some other country. Overall, it was a great date and cheered me up a lot.