Why my father wasn't at my wedding....

Today is Father's Day, which of course means that the Post Secret post for this week was all about fathers. The happy ones made me want to cry. Most days I'm happy that I no longer have contact with my abusive father, but sometimes I still wish I had a daddy. I sometimes hurt still because I wasn't one of the lucky people with a loving father.

To all the good fathers in the world who do not abuse their children... Happy Father's Day.

Two of the cards were really applicable for my own life. This first one is why my ex-husband and I got married by a judge at a courthouse instead of having a big wedding with our family and friends. I dreamed of having a big wedding all my life, but I could not stand the idea of an abusive father walking me down the aisle. I know that if I planned a big wedding and tried to say I didn't want him to walk me down the aisle, it would have caused a huge fight between everyone, so I just went to the courthouse.


The second one spoke to me because I think some women who grow up with good loving fathers take it all for granted. I think it takes a situation where you don't have that for you to fully realize how much you need a father. Even my mom took for granted how great her father was until the day he died and she suddenly realized how much he meant to her.