I feel like a medical guinea pig

Warning some people (including myself) may find this post very gross ....

I've been having ovarian problems for a year and a half. I'm so sick of the issue. My gynecologist keeps changing me from one medicine to another and nothing is helping. She keeps hesitating when I suggest just doing a hysterectomy because I'm "too young." I really want to just take a steak knife and cut out my ovaries myself. (Of course, I wouldn't do that in reality, but some days I think about it)

I've been on this most recent medicine for four months now. In January, I had a horrible period that lasted 14 days. I had to call in sick to work twice because it made me weak due to the blood loss, nauseous, and left me in horrible pain. February saw no period whatsoever. Then this month, I had a period that was just as bad as January's but lasted even longer (18 days), once again forcing me to call in sick to work more than once. That period ended just five days ago.

Then last night I was working toward my 10:30 p.m. deadline when all of a sudden at 9:45, I felt a weird liquidy sensation inside me, like a gush of liquid. (I know, too much gross information). I should have ran to the restroom at that very second, but I had to finish my work and make the deadline. I wasn't in pain yet, so I was able to make it until 10:30.

As soon as I made the deadline, I ran to the restroom and found that I was massively bleeding... not just a little blood, a major amount of blood. I knew that it wasn't a good sign that I had blood that soon after a period ending. I told my boss that I needed to leave work early because I knew that I would soon be in pain, and I left work just in time to get home before the horrible pains set in. I got light-headed and dizzy from the blood loss and pain as soon as I got home.

I called the doctor first thing this morning and talked to her nurse. They weren't sure what exactly happened last night. It may have been a cyst rupturing or .... well ... who knows what else. The doctor decided that the medicine may actually be doing more harm than good, so she told the nurse to tell me to stop taking it altogether starting today. And she wants to see me in a month after my system "zeros" out from the hormone treatments so she can run tests and talk about the options. One of those options she wants to talk about better be a hysterectomy or I may be finding another doctor.

The nurse said it's hard to tell what's going to happen in the next four weeks until I go in. She said my problems may get better or a hell of a lot worse. I guess only time will tell.