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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

Feel free to comment here on the blog or email me at bpdokc@yahoo.com.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The 5000 Question Meme, The Seventh Part

201. Put these creatures in order from what you would least like to be reincarnated as (1), to what you would most like to be reincarnated as (10) assuming reincarnation ended up existing AND you were given a choice.
1) Vulture, 2) Manta Ray, 3) Caterpillar, 4) Rock, 5) Oak tree, 6) Wild dog, 7) Male human, 8) Dolphin, 9) Female human, 10) House dog

202. What do you feel unworthy of?
Love

203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person?
Something I did for humanity

204. Which do you value more: science or intuition?
Science

205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first?
My boyfriend. He'd need me more

206. Does the universe revolve around human beings?
My universe revolves around my dogs... :D

207. Do you wish you still were a virgin?
I don't really want to go back to being a virgin, but I would like to forget all my past sexual experiences

208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now?
Not to toot my own horn, but I love my own poems the most

209. What is your favorite song from the 90's?
That may honestly be the hardest question I've ever had to answer on one of these memes. There are so many songs I loved. I think I'm going to have to go with Meredith Brooks' song "What would happen"


210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be?
S ... I like its curves

211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.?
I don't really believe in any of them, but they make good TV/movies sometimes

212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend?
I like sarcastic people

213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun?
I have before but not recently

214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth?
Can't say I have

215. What is your favorite line from a movie?
This rant by Kathryn in "Cruel Intentions" has always been my favorite movie quote: "Eat me, Sebastian! It's okay for guys like you and Court to fuck everyone. But when I do it, I get dumped for innocent little twits like Cecile. God forbid, I exude confidence and enjoy sex. Do you think I relish the fact that I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 so I can be considered a lady? I'm the Marcia fucking Brady of the Upper East Side, and sometimes I want to kill myself. So there's your psychoanalysis, Dr. Freud. Now tell me, are you in... or are you out?"

This video is the best version I can find of the rant. I wish I could find a good clip ...


216. What's your favorite video game?
My favorite game of all time was "Zombies Ate My Neighbors" ... I had it clear back when I was a teenager on my brother's Super Nintendo

217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours?
I used to steal little things for the rush of it

218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you?
"I'm sorry" when they have no control over whatever they are apologizing for

219. You allow strangers to read your blog, but would you let your parents read it?
I'm pretty honest with my mom, but I think she'd be horrified by the things I've written on here

220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower?
If I'm tired and need a quick wake-up, I need a hot shower, but I really love bubble baths

221. Are you allergic to anything?
I'm allergic to latex, most things with fragrances added (lotions, some shampoos, some laundry detergents, dryer sheets), many perfumes/colognes. I also have tons of seasonal allergies and I'm allergic to pet dander

222. What is your favorite Terminator movie?
I've never seen any of them

223. What is your favorite fast food?
Right now I'm partial to the Beefy 5-Layer Burritos at Taco Bell

224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again?
Cheat on me

225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed?
I own a couple small whips. I've had them for years. Mostly I just whipped people for fun during drinking parties. I don't mind mixing a little pain with my sex though

226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally?
I say that almost every day

227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend?
Because they're greedy, obviously

228. Have you ever won a carnival fish?
I don't remember ever even trying

229. Did it live more than a week?
N/A

230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have?
I don't like accents at all

231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read?
Honestly? The Bible

232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens?
Buttons

233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series?
Never read any of them

234. Would you consider yourself to be naive?
No, I wish I was naive sometimes

235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail?
There is one I could imagine getting arrested for getting too touchy-feely with a male stripper

236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it?
$5 ... Does that make me gross?

237. Would you ever wear real fur?
No. I have a strong feeling I'd be allergic to it

238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks?
Ergh, neither

239. What are your feelings about police officers?
They are normally useless when you're getting the hell beaten out of you by your husband

240. what is your favorite line from a song?
That's another really hard one. I'd have to say: "I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut. My weakness is that I care too much. My scars remind me that the past is real. I tear my heart open just to feel" from Papa Roach's song "Scars"

241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money?
It is when you're broke... which means for me, it's a lot of money

242. Do you like the band Front 242?
Never heard of them before this question

243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction?
Money

244. What's your middle name?
Renee

245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?
Damn, there isn't much I wouldn't do for that amount of money

246. Are you good, evil or neutral?
As Rihanna says in her song "S&M" ... "I may be bad But I’m perfectly good at it"

247. Should ebonics be considered a language?
No, absolutely not

248. What color is your bedroom? What color would you like it to be?
Off white and I'm fine with that

249. When are you planning to move to a new home?
As soon as I can figure out the finances ... or when I get married .... whichever comes first

250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be? 
Um, $7,000, maybe? I'm in my front room/living room/dining room ... I have no idea really

251. Do you blow your nose in public?
If you gotta blow, you gotta blow

252. Do you want to follow in your parent's footsteps?
Nope

253. What is the coolest web site you know of?
Can I plug my "A Journey Through Jennifer's Mind in Images" blog here??

254. Which cartoon would you most like to see turned into a movie?
The "Buckles" comic strip



255. Of the following, which word best describes you: enthusiastic, fair minded, generous, helpful
Probably helpful

256. Can you eat with chopsticks?
I can't even use the "kid' chopsticks

257. Could you tell real money from counterfeit?
God, I'd hope so

258. What do you think about school uniforms?
I'm glad I never had to wear them

259. What ancient civilization would you most like to visit?
I'm not too into the idea of visiting anywhere without indoor plumbing

260. What would make a great new Crayola color?
I'm all about the black crayons ... just call me "emo"



261. If an art project is created with the intent of getting rich and famous, does that cast doubt over its significance as a work of art?
Yes

262. If you became president, whom would you invite to sing at your inauguration?
Pink

263. Who is the greatest philosopher of your country?
There are still philosophers?

264. If all the nations in the world are in debt, where did all the money go?
In Donald Trump's pockets

265. Is it as easy to make you happy now as it was when you were a child?
I don't know of a time I can honestly even say I was truly happy

266. Who knows more...you, or your parents?
I think my dogs are smarter than us all

267. What instrument would you like to be famous for playing?
The flute ... this one time at band camp .......

268. Children fill its lungs completely with air. Adults breathe in a more shallow way, not filling their lungs completely. Why the change?
Cause the older we get the more stupid we get

269. Would you have sex with a stranger for one million dollars?
Only if I can use a condom

270. Are you completely in control of your body? Are you completely in control of your mind?
No on both accounts

271. Which is more romantic: an expensive, glittering bouquet OR flowers that were hand picked as they grew beside the parkway?
Flowers aren't romantic. They quickly wilt and die

272. Do you know yourself well enough to understand why you feel the way you do?
I wish. I'm lost

273. Which do you do more often: let movies, songs and books put your feelings into words for you or put your feelings into words by yourself?
I listen to music that explains my feels for me

274. Do you believe celebrities when they are endorsing a product?
No

275. What kind of movies do you wish were made more often?
I'm all about the raunchy comedies like "Van Wilder"

276. Does fashion matter to you?
I love high fashion ... just not on myself. I prefer to be comfortable

277. Should politicians be held to the same legal standards as everyone else?
Absolutely, yes

278. What do you get in trouble for the most?
Being bitchy

279. Should parents spank their kids?
NEVER EVER EVER

280. What is your worst daily habit?
I am lazy as hell

281. If you had your choice which one TV show would you have canceled?
"Glee"

282. Do you like the taste of sweet or salt?
I have a sweet tooth

283. Are you very precise about what words you use to describe your feelings and thoughts?
Apparently not because people never understand how I feel

284. What do you feel the most guilty about?
My past sexual experiences

285. Do you meditate?
My doctors and therapists always suggest it, but I can't clear my mind long enough to do it. I can't even clear my mind long enough to fall asleep. I have to take sleeping pills just to sleep

286. Can dreams be visions, or do you feel they are always random images?
I think they can be both

287. Do you try to write/say what you are feeling in a true and simple way?
Yes

288. The thief _______ that everyone steals. What verb would you fill in the blank with?
Thinks

289. What's the most incredible experience you ever had?
My very first orgasm... LOL

290. Are you ever afraid to write/say/think how you feel?
No, but I'm not always good at doing it

291. Do you write/say/think it anyway or become intimidated and try to avoid it?
I alternate between them

292. What is one thing you can't do?
Skate

293. Do you like movies starring Charleton Heston?
I don't like him

294. Are you gentle?
I'm pretty rough/harsh

295. When do you feel the most raw and vulnerable?
I always feel raw and vulnerable. I feel like I have no "emotional skin"

296. Are you trying to find yourself?
I'm always trying to find myself

297. Where are you looking?
At the TV. I'm watching an old episode of the George Lopez sitcom

298. Are you sometimes afraid of being honest because you are afraid of hurting people's feelings?
Yes

299. What would make you a stronger person?
Every day I'm alive makes me stronger

300. What book would you like to read sometime soon?
I've started reading the "Pretty Little Liars" books. I'm looking forward to reading all of them

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