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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

bad memories

The Memory Meme

1. Are you someone who keeps memory boxes and makes scrapbooks?
I'm the type of person who keeps piles and piles of shit that is never organized. If I was even remotely organized, I would have some sort of memory boxes or scrapbooks

2. What is your most disturbing memory?
Getting raped... or my ex-husband slitting my wrist. It's sort of a toss-up

3. What is the one thing you will always remember about your childhood?
 I have honestly blocked out about 95% of my childhood before I was 9 years old. I don't have any real memories from my childhood

4. When you drive down memory lane for the last five years of your life, is it a happy journey or a bumpy ride?
My life is always a bumpy road

5. What is the last thing you memorized?
Song lyrics. It's not really on purpose. I think 3/4 of my brain is made up of song lyrics

6. Tell us about a dream you remember.
One of my most memorable dreams was from when I was a teenager. I was in a shopping mall eating gummy worms. I dropped one of them to the floor and suddenly it came to life and started growing bigger and bigger. It turned into a snake the length of a football field. It started chasing throughout the mall. The dream ended with the snake eating me in one big bite. I've never looked at gummy worms the same way after that dream. Honestly, I'm not sure I've even eaten a single one since that night

7. On this Memorial Day is there someone you'd like to honor and remember?
I lost my grandfather several years back. I really loved and respected him

3 comments:

Jamie said...

This meme couldn't have been easy for you, but you handled it well.

coopernicus said...

ditto Jamie's comment and missing grandfather. i think of mine every day

Jen said...

So I read a article that seems to be rather dismissive of the connection some have made between depression and cognitive abilities, specifically memory.
http://www.dailyrx.com/news-article/depression-lack-concentration-dont-necessarily-go-together-1680.html
I know you profess to be discombobulated at a times but what do think about this after a glance though?

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