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You have no doubt seen or heard the commercials: "Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE. Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE." Mental illnesses can consume you, take over your entire life and hurt everyone around you if you let it. I am no exception.

My life feels like I am stuck riding on a rollercoaster in the middle of a hurricane. I have ups and downs, and I have left a path of destruction in my wake. My sanity dangles on a tiny fragile string, and through this blog I am giving the world a look into my broken mind and my unstable life.

In the end, I am just a girl trying to maintain my sanity in a candy-coated world of misery. Here you'll get a glimpse at just how true those commercials are. Keep your arms and legs inside the blog at all times, hold on tight, and prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride ...

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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Keeping my scars covered

Oklahoma has been breaking all sorts of heat records this summer. It's day after day of 100-degree or higher temperatures. It's bad enough as it is heat-wise, but with me being on Effexor, it sucks. Each time I've been on it, I can't be in direct sunlight or in the heat for very long at a time. I can't even mow my lawn without feeling like I'm going to die of a heat stroke. I keep considering asking my doctor for another medicine so I can actually spend time outside, but I haven't done that.

Despite the heat, I'm always wearing pants and often long-sleeve shirts because I want to hide the scars from  my past cutting. One day at work, a coworker made the comment that on Sundays I should just wear shorts to work like the rest of them, but I won't do that because the scars on my legs would show. I wouldn't explain to him why I wouldn't wear shorts to work... It's none of his business anyway.

I'm so ready for fall to start and for cooler temperatures to come in, so I won't be sweating all day while trying to cover the scars and not trying to die of heat stroke

5 comments:

middle child said...

Autumn? Winter? Bring it on! I am so ready.

Michael said...

I actually love summer- first time in my life I have ever said that.

That being said? It's nobody's fucking business what you wear or don't and why. I hate that kind of intrusiveness.

Tainted Fibers said...

As my husband would say, 'fuck em and feed em fish heads'... None of their business what you weat

torchwoodfan said...

wear what you want if they comment tell them were to get off. ive was told yesterday that i cant go into the cafe were most of the cpn and their patients sit unless i cover my wrists so sod them all

Jayne said...

I feel the need to hide my scars if I'm doing anything at my kids school. Otherwise I have such a disgust for the general public I don't make the effort to cover them. If someone stares I look right at them. So f'n sick of the mouthbreathers out there that think not having BPD makes them better people.

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